The war zone!

I see you there
as you stand and stare,
my body is broken, i'll lay it out bare.

Look into my eyes,
they have seen more than many.
Hopes and dreams
I cant have any.

I see you there
as you stand and stare,
my spirit is broken, i'll lay it out bare.

Look into my eyes,
I'm deep down inside,
here in my war zone, theres no place to hide.

I see you there as you stand and stare,
Don't pity me, dont even dare!
Look behind my eyes
Can't you see I'm still there.

I fight the good fight
all day and all night
to awaken the spirit and live for the right
the right to be seen from the shadows of lights.

Look beyond the battle
look beyond the war

Life is worth living of that I am sure.

Comments

  1. margaret21 April 2013 at 11:24

    You need a good slap making me cry like that! It's beautiful. Pretty much says it all doesn't it. Hugs to you my friend.

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