MOJO
I have been neglecting my blog recently and I apologise if I caused anyone to worry. I have hit a brick wall at the moment and writing about gastroparesis and how I feel about it etc etc has been an impossible task. I'm finding it hard to concentrate on anything lately. I can't seem to focus or even gather my thoughts. Then I spend forever thinking about what I need to be doing...and then not doing that either! I feel kind of lost but I don't know why. I thought a break from all of it would help but it seems that once I stopped writing... it all just got harder. I think I have been bottling things up a little and now if I pop the cork its going to end in a meltdown.... if that's not whats happening already! I often put on a brave face and tell people I'm ok when I'm not, but when I try telling myself the same thing it leads to this build up of emotions that I don't really know how to handle. I am finding that the longer this goes on the more alone